What are my obsessions....?

So... If you are an OCD and anxiety survivor like myself then you know what it is like to OBSESS. What are my obsessions....? Ha... What isn't my obsession. I tend to obsess about a lot of things, but don't we all? My main obsession that causes me the most grief is my obsession regarding medical conditions. I am terrified of getting a disease such as Rheumatoid Arthritis, MS, ALS, Lupus, Cancer... etc. You name it. I am scared to death of it. Even as I sit here and write this, I am getting panicky. However, I am going to push on. My OCD is telling me to stop writing this blog because it makes me think about the diseases and makes my panicking come back. I am not going to let this bother me, especially since I know there is someone out there reading this who can relate to this. How does it start? Well.... I will have a symptom. Let's see. I have been tired lately. I start to "google" fatigue. In the search results, pops up multiple medical sites with diseases whose main symptoms are fatigue. I click on "Lupus" and see that there are several other symptoms that relate to me... OMG.. I have Lupus. I have Lupus. I have Lupus. I rush back to google with my heart racing and type in "Lupus common symptoms." I find another reputable medical website that tells me even more symptoms that relate to me. OMG... OMG... OMG... I am panicking now. It is Sunday night. I cannot call my doctor to make an appointment until tomorrow morning. There is no way that I can live with this feeling until tomorrow. I need to know. I continue to google and search like maniac, but all it does is make me freak out more.  But wait... wait wait a minute. You are not going to do this to me again. Why am I googling symptoms again? I did not think I had any other symptom until I started reading about Lupus. My OCD monster is not going to do this to me again. (I pretend OCD is this ugly, green monster that sits on my should like the devil and tries to yell things in my ear to make me freak out). I knock him off my shoulder and move on. THIS is not real. My symptoms are not real. They feel sooooo real, but the minute I am able to calm down they subside. OCD is real, but do not let "him" get the best of you. KNOCK him off your shoulder.